Underneath it all.

Dear blog,

I realise how much I’ve been forgetiing about you the past two months. Life has been crazier than ever.

Here am I, at the end of a beautiful chapter in my life. I’m proud of this journey here in Berlin. For once in my life, I decided to study for myself and not for other people. And that has been one of the most beautiful experiences. Waking up every morning, to go learn something you decided to learn.

Going in Berlin alone taught me a lot about myself too. I feel like I finally found this balance, this strenght, this version of me who needed to be found. I have to be honest, I needed this time for away from my home, my family, though I love them more than anything.

Now that I am done with this Study program, I am afraid to go back home and lose myself again. You know how easily bad habits get back on. I’m gonna have to fight anything that is surrounded me with negativity and remember that I am my own person and I need to please noone but myself. Cause at the end, I’m the only one who lives with myself 24/7.

I met some incredible people here, people I won’t forget and people I’m not ready to say goodbye to.  I have a beautiful room and a beautiful apartment with nice flatmates. And I am forever in love with Berlin. I think I’m gonna be back very soon, to achieve one or two other chapters. I’m looking forward to it.

But for now, I’m gonna go back home, spent some time with my family, friends, and study for my exam.

Berlin, I love you, thank you for everything.

So here we go. I am 25 years old. A big step, people say. But what’s interesting is that a lot of people say: “You should be happy to be 25! Your life finally begins! Think of it, you went to school and lived with parents your whole life! Now, it’s you turn to build a life that you want!”

Ok… if we think of getting older that way, I guess there are positive points. But frankly, I don’t like getting older. And I really didn’t want to celebrate my birthday untill I spoke to some great friends and after that one of my best friends did something that absolutly melted my heart! I got an online Bday Card! With over 50 people that signed and wrote a few words. I had a really rough day with some bad news, and that card made me cry. I feel so blessed for having that many people out there in the world, that support me, love me. It feels unreal!

Then the next day, I got surprised (in so many ways) by the most important person in my world! I can say that all those people made me love my 25th birthday and I hope they’ll stay in my life for at least 25 more years! <3

It is so hard to reach our goals, and yet so easy to complain about it. Of course, most of the time, you have to be at the right place at the right time! But you also have to work harder everyday to get there. If you find yourself at the right place at the right time but dont have anything proper to show, it is not worth it! It’s not it to have talent. And even… Talent… What does it mean? It’s really abstract. Some people could think you have some talent, some could think the opposite. I guess you have to clever enough to know if you are worth a shot. And even that is so hard! It so hard to judge ourselves… Isn’t it ? Some will overestimate themselves while some other will underestimate them. It’s hard to find the good balance. Such is life! A constant research of it.

 Sitting on a chair and wondering why things take so much time to happen and wondering how other people get successful is not enough. Some people may have better luck but the real key is not to be at the right place at the right time, it is to work harder everyday to get to that. Cause the real reward is not to become famous or known but to have done everything possible to achieve our dreams.